Chapter 62 - FATE

PARK

Mika was standing at the middle oh the small bridge connecting the two lands between the small village and the town.

Mika : What am I going to do now(sigh)

Mika kept on shaking her head and sighing as she think about the fact Shinn is already here .And when she saw him just now,she cant think of anything because she cant bring herself to meet him that time.And running away is the only that she could think of just now.

Mika : Rina,rina rina rina.What am I going to do.I cant simply be selfish and and go back to him.I cant,I just cant.

Mika kept her eyes locked at the river as she kept talking to herself just to ease her nerves down.Thats the only thing she could do now,she thought.She closed her eyes she thought about what Aya said to her about everything and every single word went through her mind once again

Mika :I cant do this.You would probably say that same thing as what Aya said.But still,I cant do this.(clenching her fingers)

Mika kept sighing and suddenly she heard someone’s footsteps.

Shinn : So you want to leave me?

Mika opened her eyes when she heard Shinn’s voice and quickly turned to her right to find Shinn standing at the other  end of the bridge.

Mika :How did you--

Shinn : find you?

Mika :…yes.

Shinn : Well,considering that this is the only place where you can look at the sky clearly and also the nearest spot with a river.I knew I would find you here.

Mika : What are you doing here?

Shinn : Me?In Osaka? Just having some leisure time before my next performance.Unfortunately,my personal assistant suddenly disappeared with no news and I just decided to pay her a visit.

Mika : Hah,really.

Shinn just stood there,not closing the gap between Mika and himself because he knew he need to do everything slowly to solve this.

Mika : …

Shinn : A good day for a chase don’t you think?

Mika : A chase?

Shinn : It could be a good day to practice my script.Considering the weather  is not too cold now.The snow has melten  away and all the river starts flowing.It seems like the sky knew what to do .

Mika : ….

Shinn : I guess the weather seems to understand that it is time to cool down you know.Ease the cold heart and let it warm.

Mika : You do realized you sounded like Shakespeare wanna be now.

Shinn : Shakespeare in love you mean?

Mika : (lifting her eyebrows)

Mika was about to turn around but…

Shinn : You do know Im gonna run after you if you are planning to run again.

Mika let out a sarcastic laugh as she turned around to look at Shinn

Shinn : Are you going to?

Mika : Excuse me,I am not.See,Im standing still here.Not moving an inch.

Shinn : Good then.Dont move and stay still

Shinn quickly walked towards Mika and stand really close to her.

Shinn : because you know,I would run after you no matter how many times you want to run away.

Mika : (staring at Shinn) Can you ..stop?Just stop

Shinn : Doing what?

Mika : Whatever you are doing now.This is a waste of time and--

Shinn : And you think by ignoring this,everything is going to be okay?

Mika : I didn’t say everything is going to be alright after this.

Shinn : Then ,what? You have to accept the fact that I am here infront of you and I am going to bring you back to Tokyo.

Mika : I am not going back to Tokyo and that’s final.Now would you please--

Shinn : Mika,stop now.

Mika : No Shinn,keep everything.Dont say anything and just let this go..I don’t want any of this.And I need to go now.

Shinn : Mika,you do realize you are talking to me right?

Mika : Excuse me?

Shinn : You know that you are talking to me and--

Mika : Yes I am not stupid you idiotic brainless man.Can you please..at least once,once.Think about how terrible it felt to actually realized that you are in love with someone you shouldn’t?Did it ever crossed your mind?NO? I don’t think so.Dont you think it’s very selfish to let Rina die and let me take her place while she deserves every bit of this? Do you know how awful it felt to bear the fact your only sister fought with her feelings and life while you are enjoying the life ? Her days were numbered yet she didn’t know she actually deserves this?Have these ever crossed your mind Shinn?

Shinn was speechless when Mika told him that,every word that came out from her mouth gave him a very big impact that he cant say anything but stare at her.

Mika : You never did Shinn.And that is why I m going to let it go once and for all.I really thought I can,I really thought I can go back to you and tell you how much I want to be with you.But,it seems whatever Aya told me was right.It was right but I cant help but to ignore them.And do you know how hurtful it was to have everything in your head but none are making any sense? Like deciding if I should still be ego and admit that I have fallen in love with you,and deciding if I should pretend nothing happened and forget everything.I actually pray that I would end up in a crash that I would forget everything and forget about you,just everything?And the fact that I have feelings I couldn’t bring myself to deny that and-

All of a sudden,Shin pulled Mika into his arms and hugged her.He couldn’t take it because Mika’s eyes were already tearing up as she speak and he knew,everything she said is true.And to see the person he loves bursting and spilling everything was something he cant take it.

Mika,in the other hand stopped talking when Shinn suddenly hugged her .She felt as every tiny cells of her body stopped working because for a second,her body seem to stopped functioning.

Shinn : I am sorry Mika.

Mika : (breathing hard)

Shinn ran his hands on Mika’s hair and tighten his hug.

Shinn : I am sorry Mika.I am so sorry for not knowing everything that you been through all these time.I am sorry and this is why I wont let you go.I wont and I am not gonna let you live without me.I wont and you cant make me go away from you.I am sorry for hurting you all these time and I wont forgive myself if you wouldn’t let me make it up to you

Mika : …

Shinn : I know this is too late but I know ,that we know everything happened for a reason.Fate is playing with us Mika,and fate lead me to you.

Shinn slowly released his hug and look at Mika.

Mika : You can let got of me now Shinn.I have--

Shinn suddenly put his his finger on Mika’s lip to silent her .

Shinn : No.For once,let me talk and you listen.

Mika : …

Shinn: Don’t say anything.

Mika : Okay,talk.

Shinn : ….

Mika: Talk?

Shinn said nothing but look straight at Mika’s eyes

Shinn : The moment I realized you were gone in Kyoto,I felt a huge thumping sound hitting in my head.As if the world know about me failing again that time.As if they knew,I have lost something.Something I can never bear to live without…I was scared Mika.I wanted to tell you everything but the timing was not right.I m scared that you might misunderstood everything and run away.But you did run away.And I almost felt like everything has ended when you ended the call that day.I couldn’t bear to even face anyone because it felt like they knew everything is not right… For days,I thought I had no right to go and find you.I thought everything has ended but then as time goes by,I realized you are the one I need for me go on.

Shinn paused for a while and look down.He released his hands that has been gripping Mika’s arms.

Shinn : And I know I cant do anything to make it up to you.Not even to Kazuya and Rina.I failed them and I know everyone would be mad now.really mad.Including myself.Im mad at myself because for once I thought I should give up but I was wrong.

Mika : What?

Shinn : I almost gave up on this.I was so lost and broken that I cant think straight.And--

Mika suddenly took out the ring that Shinn gave to her from her pocket and showed it to Shinn.

Mika : You can take this back then.

Shinn quickly looked up to see the ring right infront of his very eyes

Mika : I have been holding on to this after that day,thinking that this will give me strength.I was holding on Shinn,I was.But it turns out you didn’t even try to.Despite the terrible ,awful and guilty feeling invading my head,I thought that I can still go back and face you.I did want to go back but things are in a mess and I don’t want to be selfish and care just about myself.

Shinn : You got it wrong Mika,if I gave up I wouldn’t even dare to come here to find you.I found you.

Mika : This is why I hate falling in love.I lost Kazuya one and I thought about losing again and that is so rough.Love is so hard I don’t even want to undersand.

Shinn : I don’t think love is meant to be understood.

Mika : What..?

Shinn : Love is not language or maths Mika,love is everything you can feel.

Mika : Did….. Rina told you that?

Shinn : As a matter of fact yes.She kept reminding me about that

Mika : Please Shinn,just...don’t make me confuse again about everything.

Shinn  : I didn’t mean to do everything you thought.I was careless myself and I don’t think I can do this anymore without you.I need you and that’s final.And I know you feel the same too.

Mika looked down as if she is admitting that she cant run anymore.Not when she really need Shinn right at that time.

Mika : (sigh)

Shinn took the ring from Mika’s hands and Mika quickly looked up as he did that.

Shinn : I guess,I should return this ring to the person who really deserves it.

Mika : Yes,I I guess you would have to.

Shinn smiled and in a swift he took Mika’s hand and put the ring back on her ring finger.

Shinn : Here.

Mika : Wait,what.What are you doing?

Shinn : I can fight with you everyday if you want to,and I can chase you every second if you want to run again.And I can spend my whole life listening to your babbles and nags about me being so random like the weather.And no,it’s not too late for me to make it up to you.

Mika : What are you talking about Shinn?(puzzled)

Shinn : If you would allow me,I would love to spend the rest of my life making it up to you.

Mika : Wait,what?

Shinn : Mika,people often confessed about loving people because they need them.And they got it all wrong .I love you not because I need you,I need you because I love you.And that’s final.And your argument after this is invalid.And no,you cant ask me to go back to Tokyo because I have left everything in Tokyo to come to Osaka to find you.And not to mention we should go back to Kyoto for vacation or maybe honeymoon.Dont you think?

Mika expression abruptly changed when Shinn mentioned Kyoto and she quickly pulled her hands from 

Shinn’s and she look at Shinn.

Mika : You will have to stop talking for now.For real and your argument is invalid too.Alright stop now.

Shinn : (laughing)

Mika : Shut up Shinn,yes you have to shut up now.For real(annoyed)

Mika stares at Shinn as he laughed when Mika asked him to shut up,but then suddenly..

Shinn : So,are you still mad at me?

Mika : Shut up.

Shinn : (leaning close) Are you?

Mika : Stop talking Shinn.

Suddenly....

Caroline : WHAT HAPPENED IN KYOTO!!???

Shinn and Mika quickly turned around when they heard Caroline voice .

Haruna : (pulling Caroline down) Damn it you sit down!You hit my phone!

Caroline : (panicked) Oh my god

Caroline was about to return to her hiding position behind the bushes but then she stopped halfway and stood up.

Caroline : No,seriously,what happened in Kyoto?Why are they talking about honeymoon?I don’t get it.They are not even married!

Haruna : God damn it !Caroline!They heard you!(whispering)

Mika : (speechless)

Shinn : Hiiro,you can come out now.I saw you.

Mika : Oh yes,Haruna you too.What in the world-

Caroline quickly stepped out of the small bushes and quickly walked to Mika

Caroline : What is it about Kyoto and you both!?I don’t get it?

Mika: When did I mention about Kyoto?

Haruna quickly hide her phone behind her back as Mika turned to look at her.

Caroline : Haruna,give me your phone--

Mika : You what?Did you just?

Hiiro : (cough) So..

Shinn : I wont question how you guys find us.

Mika : Haruna,Caroline.What are you both doing here?

Haruna : aaaa …aaaa Actually..

Caroline : We decided to follow Shinn after he left.And we were here,early enough.Aya was the one who helped is with the directions…

Mika : (speechless) You heard us?

Caroline : (nodding ) woops.....

Haruna : Caroline !Why did you stand up just now!(whispering)

Caroline : Oh come one what-

HAruna : I thought we planned to wait until Shinn and Mika kiss!Or hug or anything!(annoyed)

Caroline : Heh!I almost forgot!

Haruna : I thought we promised to wait till that moment!

Caroline : OH come one,we could just ask them to kiss again and we could just record this live.Settle Haruna!

Haruna :….(sigh)

Mika : (starring at Caroline and Haruna) Till who and who?What?

Haruna and Caroline slowly turn to look at Mika whom are starring at them as if they are her preys.

Hiiro : So,are you guys good now?

Shinn : Ask her(smirking)

Mika : Oh shut up.

Hiiro : I guess that’s a yes.(laughing)

Haruna : So,are we even now…?

Mika : Even?

Haruna : You guys I mean.

Hiiro : More surprise to come I guess.

Shinn: Indeed.

Caroline : Wait…..I have something..

Hiiro : Why?

Mika : What’s wrong Caroline?

All of them look at Caroline and waited for her to speak out.

Caroline : What happened in Kyoto?

Haruna : (smacks) Caroline!Save that when it’s all girls alright.

Mika: Now,this is what you call a mess.(sigh)

Shinn :OH really?

Mika : Shut up Shinn.Dont talk until we get back to the shop

Haruna : I should record this one too.

Mika : No you shouldn’t Haruna,not if you don’t want me to ran over your beloved blinked iphone.

Haruna : (hesitating) Hai..hai..

Caroline : Maybe we should do it quietly…(whispering to Haruna)

Mika : I heard that.